When the I do's become I don't(s)

I know that I am the worst blogger in the world, but I blog when I feel like it, plain and simple. I get these moments when things hit me deep enough that I am inspired to let u, blogworld, into my head. This is one of these moments.

Lately, I have been doing some serious thinking about whether or not I'm ready to make a serious commitment and dare I say, get married. I think my reasoning is more logical than based on feelings. I'm 25, most of my friends and college associates are either married, have a child or 2, or 3, or are in a serious relationship that is probably going to lead to marriage in the near future. Me on the other hand, I am still having fun in the wonderful world of dating. I haven't had a serious relationship going on two years now. Actually, if I had to choose someone to get serious with right at this moment, that would be a hard decision to make. Why am I so afraid to take the big leap?

Nowadays, I don't feel that people respect marriage like they did back in our grandparents' days. It's one thing to cheat in a relationship(disclaimer:I am in no way condoning cheating), but marriage is a commitment. A boyfriend/girlfriend relationship is simply a promise. People break promises everyday without thinking twice, but when people make a commitment, they are saying that this is something serious. If you are not ready to make a commitment, don't get married. Plain and simple. This is not 1920, you don't have to marry a girl just because you get her pregnant. That crap about making her an honest girl went out the window when you had sex out of wedlock anyway. Having a child does not make you all of a sudden ready to commit to someone.

I made a vow to myself that when I get married, the only way I would ever get a divorce is if my husband and I become harmful to each other physically. All the other problems can be worked out through counseling or expensive gifts. So until I find a man that will remain faithful and is REALLY ready to make that commitment, I'm screaming "I don't!"